It's getting late and I can't sleep. Well, really I can, but something too familiar is eating away at all the good sleep I'd once had: me.
My phone buzzes signaling the arrival of a simple little text message, which I read and smile. My mind flashes and I'm recollecting previous experiences like this one. The historical landscape teems with experiences in which my real concerns for others are genuinely masked by the frightening and terrorizing fact that when I doubt who I am or where I am going in this ocean of chaos, I want all attention pointed at myself.
It's quite simple, actually. I greet you one day and you don't react as I expect, and for whatever reason, if I'm in a bad mood, I believe your response is because of me. It is always about me.
Your day is rough? Damn, my day was rough too and right now I'm annoying the hell out of you because I'm telling you about it and I'm thinking you shouldn't mind listening to me whine. Oh really? Now you feel worse? Well, clearly everyone's malcontent stems from the locus of all malady: me. What can we do? Clearly we need to focus our attention on me so we can all feel better. Yep, me me me me me. Mememememe. Me.
Boo. Yeah, lame to say the least. Even my reading this is re-prioritizing your thoughts over to yours truly: me. By the way, I had a venn diagram to demonstrate more accurately but my circle ate it.
It's somewhat humiliating when you realize sometimes the people closest to you need you a little bit apart as much if not more than times when they want the luxury of being together with you closely. Being apart in these instances will always bring you closer, while pulling closer will likely bring you apart.
The talk and worry over the factor of 'me' in the challenges you face daily is unnecessary since at the moment, your challenges seldom have much to do with 'me' in the first place. All the 'mememe' talk gives you one more thing on your list to worry about. Let's agree. That stinks.
Simple put, its all you, then us, then me [hi!]. I'm here to support your goals, even if there's no 'me' in them at the moment.
